When a year draws to a close it’s natural to reflect on the highs and lows, we find ourselves wishing for a better new year, setting new goals, planning new adventures and setting new expectations. Reality however can often fall below expectation.
To say my 2017 was imperfect would be to put it mildly, it was a rollercoaster of unhinged crazy nonetheless it provided some valuable life lessons.
I could sum up my year with three words:
Life can be tumultuous where there is calm a hurricane of destruction can enter without warning or without concern for the destruction left in its wake. I had my very own personal cyclone this year which uplifted my very foundation.
Sometimes the rug gets pulled from underneath you as a result of life events and when we eventually recover our footing, take a look around nothing looks or feels the same again, we must learn to adjust to the new that surrounds us.
Initially the new is terrifying it provides no comfort only anxiety, fear and sadness. It’s undesirable and unwanted. However, once the storm has passed and the raging tide subsides a new landscape is revealed, which we are forced to discover and plot a new course despite our reluctance to do so because the old has been simply washed away. It can provide a blank slate to build a new life, new goals and a new sense of who you are and what you want from life. This uncharted territory makes us question our new reality it makes us wonder !
This year more than ever I found myself wondering why we spend so much time worrying about what others think of us or our lives when in reality we will never have the opportunity to live each other lives. This questioning was for me personally due to survival instinct a need to find space to breathe again. Judgement from others can be both crippling and smothering.
We must exist in our own life from the time we are born to the time we die. It’s what makes us all completely unique despite any similarity. If you don’t fit in to a uniformed idea of the “expectation” regards thinking, behaviors and life choices then you may find yourself subject of negative discussion. Non-conformity requires explanation.
But what happens if we don’t or can’t conform? What happens if we don’t or can’t explain?
The answer is nothing life goes on! Realising this however can be quite liberating!
The fact is nobody lives a perfect life despite what they may lead you to believe or what you may assume for yourself so if your life or circumstances take a knock fix it for your own happiness not the approval of others.
I also found myself wondering why a desire to live your own life to your own tune requires opinion of others? It’s something that really baffles me one’s desire to want more from his or her life can result in the infamous “ideas above their station” or “who do they think they are” comments.
Maybe you’re the type of person who is happy to fly solo or perhaps you don’t like your current flock’s direction and would like to change course why does that require an advanced approval? Why must you stay where others believe you belong?
To me that’s just plain weird everyone has the right to walk their own path simple as!
From year to year I’m very blessed to say my wonderful remains the same and for that I will continue to be so grateful for the people in my life.
Wonderful things about my 2017 include:
My family who I love beyond words
My soulmates I call my friends who I also love beyond words
They have been there for me unwavering and with unconditional love and support through the good, the bad and the evil this year. Was 2017 my best year? No. in fact if you asked me a few months ago I would have said it was the worse year of my life but that isn’t true because it was filled with both good and bad. I will never wish time away because 2018 won’t be perfect either and this year has thought me that’s perfectly ok. Here’s to 365 more days of my wild, weird and wonderful life may it remain perfectly imperfect.
Ps: if you find yourself caught up your own personal cyclone remember irrespective of their size and category they have a limited lifecycle the calm and the clarity will return